all of the above are all valid points.
I keep being told that I had a strong application, etc. etc. and that I fell through the cracks, or this just happens. who knows.
I keep getting told "you are someone who will do well in orthopaedics.. you will be an orthopod.. just not this year." I can't tell you how terrible that sounds to me
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Beyond my application, I would like to think that there was something else that I can fix. Not enough research? Could have had a few more pre-clinical honors? Maybe I was a jerk, maybe I wasn't.. who knows. I tried my very best not to be anything of the like on my interviews, but you never know. I ranked 19 places still to no avail. did I slip on my interviews that many times???
All I know is that I'm broken hearted just like the other folks. This is something I have wanted to do since I was a child.. and now I can't have it. I worked hard.. and I had all of the numbers, the pieces of the puzzle.. and I still didn't match.
Now..
I'm sitting here in my bed, unshaven, feeling *worthless* a complete loser.... reading a book with nothing to do.. my friends are all out celebrating. I had to cancel my trip to vegas.. it sucks. and it's true, it is probably one of the worst feelings you can ever have.
But I have hope. I've got a new mentor. My home program was useless in this respect, and now I think I have someone to goto bat for me. Maybe I'll wind up in their program, maybe I won't.. I don't know.
I'm buckling down, trying to hammer out the research projects I will do, etc. etc. But this takes time.. and in the shuffle, I still feel like a piece of junk rotting on a log.
*sigh* who knows.. maybe next year i'll wind up at a better place than I would have (but really didn't) this year.
good luck to all, and i hope you all matched and are happy. for those that didn't, or those that are reading this hoping to match next year.. go all out.. do everything you can, pull as many strings.. do what you must.. because everyone else is!
Don't get left behind. Don't fall through the cracks like I did.